Post by The Silent Orator on Apr 17, 2007 13:24:33 GMT -5
It has been a great time being here on the EAB, but I no longer can post here anymore. I've just got too many problems IRL to be able to spend my time on forums anymore. I've been here for a while, and it feels sad that I'm leaving. I've met so many great people, seen new faces come and old faces leave...
It has been an honor to be part of the site, but it's time I've gone. I'll miss all of you, and I feel sorry that I cannot continue the RP's I'm in.
I might still be on IM on occasion, though I don't know how much I can even do that anymore. *Sigh* I'll finish this message as I return home.
EDIT: *returned home*
I just want to clear up that my reasons for leaving here is not anything that has happened here. I've been struggling for the past nine or so months on a severe problem I've been having IRL. It slowly was starting to get better, but as of the past week or two, it's crashed down upon me.
I'm struggling right now just to stay afloat right now. My asthma is gradually starting to get worse and is even starting to affect me even though I'm not working hard physically. It's starting to affect me in cold weather. My cough, which I still don't know what causes it, has been getting worse now... to the point that I get a sore throat every morning, 'cause of the coughing I had done the night before irritating my throat.
Besides that, I've been coping with some severe problems in my life. As I mentioned, almost exactly a year ago I had lost my girlfriend (hence why I had my member title on the original EAB removed). She was one of the closest people I ever had in my life. And... I didn't just break up with her... I mean, due to circumstances, I couldn't even see or talk to her again. She was no longer in this world. A couple of weeks ago, another incident occurred, that I shall not talk about.
I've slowly lost pretty much all of my friends IRL (except for a select few) through stupid choices of mine. My performance at school has slipped horribly, though my grades haven't been completely affected by it yet. My performance with every instrument I know of has been severely hindered... I can no longer play the way I used to a year ago.
I've slowly lost interest in everything in life. Making and performing music no longer interests me, writing stories has become more of a chore than an activity, doing role-plays just doesn't thrill or excite me anymore... I've lost most, if not all, of my interest in computers. My curiousity to find out how things work has just disappeared.
Someone commented that I'm "struggling to find out who I am anymore", so I guess that's the best way to put it. I don't enjoy anything I used to... partially because I've moved on, and partially because everything I used to love has so many painful and sad memories attached to it. I'm probably not going to be back on this board (and if I am, it will be a long time... depending on how long it takes to set things straight).
You know, looking into the past, I realize that exactly a year ago, I was so happy and naive. A year can change a person, for the better or for the worse.
I bid you all farewell, and to all you younger members out there... just enjoy your childhood. Enjoy it and live it to the fullest. Don't let a single fucking thing take it away, because there will be that one instant that it will be snatched away and you'll wish you could enjoy it more.
Well, guys, it's been knowing you all. Kainus, Ninmast, Spectral, Veros, Veers, GB, Donut... and all the EAB members I've known throughout the years... I bid my farewell.
It has been an honor to be part of the site, but it's time I've gone. I'll miss all of you, and I feel sorry that I cannot continue the RP's I'm in.
I might still be on IM on occasion, though I don't know how much I can even do that anymore. *Sigh* I'll finish this message as I return home.
EDIT: *returned home*
I just want to clear up that my reasons for leaving here is not anything that has happened here. I've been struggling for the past nine or so months on a severe problem I've been having IRL. It slowly was starting to get better, but as of the past week or two, it's crashed down upon me.
I'm struggling right now just to stay afloat right now. My asthma is gradually starting to get worse and is even starting to affect me even though I'm not working hard physically. It's starting to affect me in cold weather. My cough, which I still don't know what causes it, has been getting worse now... to the point that I get a sore throat every morning, 'cause of the coughing I had done the night before irritating my throat.
Besides that, I've been coping with some severe problems in my life. As I mentioned, almost exactly a year ago I had lost my girlfriend (hence why I had my member title on the original EAB removed). She was one of the closest people I ever had in my life. And... I didn't just break up with her... I mean, due to circumstances, I couldn't even see or talk to her again. She was no longer in this world. A couple of weeks ago, another incident occurred, that I shall not talk about.
I've slowly lost pretty much all of my friends IRL (except for a select few) through stupid choices of mine. My performance at school has slipped horribly, though my grades haven't been completely affected by it yet. My performance with every instrument I know of has been severely hindered... I can no longer play the way I used to a year ago.
I've slowly lost interest in everything in life. Making and performing music no longer interests me, writing stories has become more of a chore than an activity, doing role-plays just doesn't thrill or excite me anymore... I've lost most, if not all, of my interest in computers. My curiousity to find out how things work has just disappeared.
Someone commented that I'm "struggling to find out who I am anymore", so I guess that's the best way to put it. I don't enjoy anything I used to... partially because I've moved on, and partially because everything I used to love has so many painful and sad memories attached to it. I'm probably not going to be back on this board (and if I am, it will be a long time... depending on how long it takes to set things straight).
You know, looking into the past, I realize that exactly a year ago, I was so happy and naive. A year can change a person, for the better or for the worse.
I bid you all farewell, and to all you younger members out there... just enjoy your childhood. Enjoy it and live it to the fullest. Don't let a single fucking thing take it away, because there will be that one instant that it will be snatched away and you'll wish you could enjoy it more.
Well, guys, it's been knowing you all. Kainus, Ninmast, Spectral, Veros, Veers, GB, Donut... and all the EAB members I've known throughout the years... I bid my farewell.
